I was inspired to do some more writing again on Sunday evening after the kids went to bed, and Kevin was playing his World of Warcraft game. It is easy to get into writing when he’s on his game because I have no one to talk to.
So I did quite well, added at least a few pages to my memoir, saved it as always… and then it was gone. I spent a couple of days trying to find a way to open the document, but all the work I did was lost. Still don’t know why and how. I was so frustrated, I just felt like crying.
I was beginning to think that maybe God is trying to tell me something, maybe I’m not supposed to write this memoir. I talked to my best friend Tina, who found encouraging words for me yet again. She told me that maybe God was just trying to teach me to persevere.
It took a while for me to even find the courage to write again, I had done some pretty good work, I can’t just sit down and repeat what I wrote. I know it won’t be the same when I write it again, the thoughts will be sort of the same, but I won’t think and write the same as I did before. I went down on my knees before I started, and asked God for wisdom, and direction. I only want to write and publish this memoir if it is His will, and I pray that sharing my journey would somehow be a blessing to others.